Thursday, March 31, 2005

Is it simple ??

Today I read your writings...
And It kinda snaps me back to reality...
And makes me questioning myself...
I don't know how to explain this question...
But I never intended to make you more confuse

I don't know what I want...
I never know where this may lead us now...
But I know where my path ended up in your life...
Now I'm telling you this...
I have nothing to offer you
Except what we have now...

Maybe our journey will ends up like what my heart says when I first saw you...
Which I always try to avoided it all this time
But destiny is destiny, i guess...
Now I know I cannot change how it's really turns out...
But I doubted it, this destiny...
I'll tried my luck once more to change it since there's nothing I can offer you...
But out there...
I know someone offer you the world

You see...
This heart has frozen for so many years...
One thing I can tell you is
that I can't offer the same thing she offers you...
For this heart needs more time for me to offer you the same thing as her...

and maybe I would never offer it
i don't know for sure...
but one thing I know for sure...
This feelings that I had when I'm with you is true
I've enjoyed our time together..
But to say it was love...I still don't know...
loosing you will be a lost for me...
but compared to hers...it was nothing...

No matter what...
I'll remember all the fun we had together
Don't let my existence prevent you to make the decision
Or makes you drown in a pool of confusions
Before its too late to change everything and the "what if" question rise up...

Your life is in your hand...
Happy or not its for you to decide...
Never let anyone decide things for you...
So once you decide, you'll it never regret it

always remember things happens for a reasons...

You've been a nice friend for me all this time...
And I don't wanna hurt anyone anymore...
I don't want you to have high hope on me
so right now I'm telling you this...

It's ok to leave me here...

Since there are better persons for you out there
A person that always tries to reach you
A person that always haunted your past and you can never let her go
And I know that you still have feelings for her

I know cause I've had it once
That feelings will never gone, it will remains in our heart
And develop into something different once we get over it
The question is where is your feelings will ended up...

One thing that I'm asking you
I hope our friendship remains...

I don't know what to say anymore
For you is the one who can decide...

question ??

Love...
Once you touched by it...
It can make you strong...
But it also can make you weak...
Why should it touched me once...
Why did I let it touched me...
Why can't the effect of it disappear??

This heart has changed and develop close to its human form
Why love came and changes my heart...
Even though my feelings for that persons is gone
The effect of it still lives inside me...

Is it our destiny to loved??
Or its just a feeling that caused by the fear of being alone ??

Sunday, March 13, 2005

My birthday :D

Tadine gue da males buat update blog :p soale lama banget loading page bloggernya ...tapi pengen update juga hehehe...so here it is...

well buat kalian yang tau 11 maret kemaren ultah gue :d, makasih buat yang uda sms dan uda telp gue :D sorry ga bales sms kalian soale pulsa gue limited huehehehe,,tapi gue sangat berterima kasih karena kalian masi inget ama ultah gue :D apalagi temen sma gue en temen ade gue yang lagi di Bali hehehe....gue lupa kasi selamat ke kalian waktu kalian ultah maap ^^'
well birthday kali ini ga dirayain dengan makan2 ato potong kue di sekret :D tapi dengan olah raga, tepatne lari pagi hikz...gue da lama ga olah raga...

trus kenapa gue bisa ngerayain ultah gue dengan berolahraga?? jawabannya cm satu dogy jelek dan rese yang membuat gue harus bangun pagi dan berolahraga di saat yang bersamaan....
Bayangin aja gue mesti bangun jam 5 padahal kalo kuliah aja boro2 gue bangun jam 5 huehehehe....tapi apa boleh buat kyanya gue ga bisa nolak ajakannya dia buat olahraga bareng ade en temennya...padahal gue tidur jam 1an malemnya... *karena gue mesti cari baju buat olahraga..damn ternyata gue ga da persediaan baju buat olahraga T_T, uda gt karena ada orang yang telpon ampe jam 1/2 1an gt deh T_T, sapa yah :P*

Pas hari ultah gue bangun jam 5, perasaan gue da malesss..banget buat bangun..tapi apa boleh buat..gue uda bilang mao ikut ^_^ lagian gue juga ga da kerjaan laen dan ga da salahnya gue berolahraga...ga enak juga kalo gue sampe belun siap berangkat waktu dogy dateng...untungnya gue siap pas sebelum mereka dateng :D

Pas keluar yang pertama kali gue liat si dogy pake celana panjang...gue langsung spontan ngomong, ko elo pake celana panjang.. *aaa....* tapi dia bilang yang pake cm dia doang, en pas gue keluar bener2 keluar, bener aja yang celana panjang cm dia doang...adeknya (Tasya) ama temennya (wahyu) pake celana pendek. setelah kenalan kita berangkat ke senayan :D
Wah si Wahyu nyetirnya parah ^_^ ngerti deh kenapa dogy khawatir :D mereka *wahyu en Tasya* nakanya enak :D tadine gue takut bakal kaku karena gue jujur aja kalo ke orang asing ga bisa langsung kya "gue" hehehe... tapi ternyata we get along pretty well *menurut gue :D*

sialnya karena pas gue di mobil angin2an pas buka jendela kyanya gue masuk angin..tambah lagi gue kurang tidur -_-" jadi gue cm kuat 1 putaran trus kepala gue rasanya ga enak en gue rada mual *hoekz...* jadi gue duduk bareng ama dogy *hehehe....sorry elo jadi ga lari pagi :D*. Sial tuh gue bener2 keliatan lemah hari tu ^_^" soale lama banget duduknya..trus pas gue uda baekan gue males lari lagi hikz...jadi kita jalan aja keliling2 senayan, oh yeah btw kita olah raganya di senayan ^^...Pas selesai kita foto2 dulu :D hehehe....

en karena kita ga langsung pulang kita ke TA dulu...en dudulzny si dogy ga bawa celana ganti...ya ampuuunn.... untung si Wahyu bawa celana, jadi de dia pake celana Wahyu...hahaha...kebayang kalo si dogy pake celana olahraganya tadi...gue bisa ngakak en ga mao jalan deket2 dia :p sampe di TA jam 09.15 kita langsung ganti baju... gile sepi juga yah TA jam segitu *jelas aja masi baru buka gt lo :p* karena rencana mao makan di McD en McDnya belun buka kita muter2 dulu...trus pas uda sampe atas kita balik lagi n duduk depan McDnya yang ternyata buka jam 10...

abis makan langsung ke TA..MAEEEEENN di timezone :D hehehe....yang paling asik itu waktu maen Daytona :D ga sangka gue masih bisa maen daytona :d en gue berhasil jadi posisi ke 2 en ke 1 :D yay...sementara si dogy dudul ke 1 dan 4...hahaha...meskipun aga lebih lambat dari masa jaya *cieeeh :D* tapi gue berhasil merebut posisi 1 hueheueheh...

selesai maen kita cari photo box... *well seperti yang dogy pernah bilangin adenya emang bener2 suka photobox :D* hahaha..si dogy cm keliatan matane doang disetiap photo :D kenapa yah :p

abis foto2 kita balik deh :D en pas sampe rumah ternyata si dogy ngasi hadiah.. duw.. thanks yah :D jadi ga enak ati neh ^^' en surprisenya ga cm itu aja karena adeknya yang tiba2 keluar mobil itu nyirem gue pake aer.. hikz...basah deh.. untung yang dia pegang bukan fanta atau sejenisnya... *jadi gue harusnya ngerasa beruntung yah :-?*

Pas pulang buka kado terus keramas deh...abis tu langsung tepar di tempat tidur hehehe....meskipun keganggu *eh ga de ga keganggu ko :p tapi tetep aja gue jadi ga tidur hahaha...* telp dan sms temen2 gue..btw mereka bingung pas denger gue lagi tidur, pasti mereka mikir neh anak ko ultahnya malah tidur :-? kalo aja mreka tau huehehe :p ...ada yang pas telp, gue kya orang beler gt jawabnya huehehe...namanya juga setengah tidur :p maap yah :D

eniwei kesimpulan dari ultah tahun ini.. a lot of fun en gue jadi nyadar kalo gue rada egois akhir2 ini, terlalu mikirin diri sendiri sampe gue lupa tanggal ultah temen2 gue *tidaaaaak...* gue ngerasa guilty banget...maap yah.. *meskipun gue tau kalian ga baca..ntar tak sms deh :D*

felis out hehehe.....cu bloggie